The deed is done.
I slipped out of consciousness and into a new form of reality.
The veil has been lifted and now I can see.

I checked out.  Life became hard.
I was going through tough times.
I was in pain.  Deep, deep pain.
Nothing mattered.
I was scared and didn't know what to do,
actually, I knew exactly what to do 
but didn't know what the outcome would be.
I really didn't want to hurt the one's I left behind,
my dear friends and family, but I had no choice. 

I hid my feelings well.
I know people would have tried to talk me out of it
so when they asked if I was okay I said yes, even 'till the end.
I wanted to do it
I have no regrets.
Some of you are worried that I am in hell,
but the only hell there is, is what man has created in his own mind.
There is no separation from God, for God is within us.
Hell is when we don't recognize that.

I am however, in my own personal hell
because I didn't see the God within me.
I'm reviewing my life now, and I will come back again,
for that is the law of the universe.
God forgives and loves,
it is truly amazing grace.

Don't mourn for me too long dear one's.
There is darkness in the night
but the sun comes up at dawn.
There is hope in life and in death.
I want to thank that special person that spoke at my funeral.
It was beautiful and moving.
I had tears in my eyes.

There are many life path potentials to choose from. 
To be or not to be my friends, that is the question.
Always keep me in your thoughts, for I am always in yours.
Light a candle in my memory and say a little prayer for me,
for God answers them 
in his own way and time.
Hold me close to your hearts,and know
I will always be with you. 

I've been like this since I was a child.
I see bright lights glowing around people.
I have nightmares of bad things happening
to people I care about that have come true.
I know things that I should have no way of knowing.
I feel at times I'm losing my mind, yet
I know it's all very real.
When I was five, I had a dream
my grandfather would die, and the next day he did.
I remember being sad and alone, but all was not lost because
I knew he was with me.
He sat at the edge of my bed while I was sleeping.
For years I would know his presence, until he went into the light.
Even then I felt he was near.
I was scared to tell people because they would have thought I was a freak, and I may have tended to agree, for
you see, I'm living with the dead.

I have nightmares in my mind all the time.
I hear voices when no one else is around.
I see people I don't know, who have passed on, wanting my help.
Some are sad
some are angry
some are lost and want to cross into the light.

I have visions of the spirits 
deepest darkest secrets that fill my heart.
I feel the pain and suffering that
tears them up inside.
Tortured souls,
that have regrets of lost dreams, and
unfulfilled desires.
It's hard to live when you see death all around you.

I've felt like giving up,
of closing the door on them, but
as the years pass, 
I am slowly coming to terms with my ability
which I called madness before, but now it is a gift.
I no longer cry as I know I am helping people.
I assist the living in finding solace and comfort,
letting them know their loved ones are still around.
I mend the spirits once shattered lives to that of hope
and ease their pain to find peace and rest.
I find their way back home.
We will all go home one day.
My life is a contradiction,
I'm alive but
I'm living with the dead.

How many people believe in the paranormal?  Do you believe in ghosts?  How about UFO’S?  How many have had personal experiences with ghosts or UFO’S?  Did it scare you or comfort you?    I’ve never had any personal experiences with ghosts, but I know people who have and I believe they exist.  Death isn’t the end, it’s just another state of consciousness.

There are many ghost hunting shows out there now, people are looking for the truth.    They want to know if there is life after death.  What about psychics or mediums?    Just like people in any other career,  I believe there are really good psychics/mediums, who are very genuine and are right on target most of the time, and then there are some who aren’t so good.    I don’t think psychics can be right 100 % all the time because we have fee will and that changes the psychics prediction.  I wrote a poem called Living with the Dead, which is based on the perception from the psychic/mediums point of view.

For those that are interested in the paranormal, there  is a radio show called coast to coast am.  It has all things paranormal and it is really very interesting.  The website is www.coasttocoastam.com.

I would love to hear your experiences with the paranormal and how you felt about it.  what would you do if you saw a ghost?  Would you run and hide or try to make contact with it?

"We only need to be still and things will reveal themselves
in the still waters of our heart."

Thich Nhat Hanh

The blank page stares at me.
No new words come to mind.
My heart is in pain for what you have done,
but I need to let it go for me to move on.
Forgiveness is for me and for you.

It's easier said than done,
I know, for I have forgiven.
The pain is almost gone now
but still lingers.
they say time heals all wounds
but forgiveness quickens the pace.

Time marches on.
Memories flood my mind,
but don't sting my heart.
They're from a past of long ago.
Photographs of lost dreams fade away while
new ones emerge and are more real and vivid
then the last.
Forgiveness allows you to go on a new path and destiny
unencumbered and free.

It's hard and takes time, for that I am sure.
When it gets too difficult to do on your own
lift your hands up, and surrender it to God.
Then let the river of life
carry you into your next chapter.
Forgiveness lets you forget the 
old past, and hurts, and
lets your heart beat again.